yesterday, I shared a little bit about the ebbs and flows of my hair-story. today I sense God calling me deeper in that area and i will share a bit of that depth with you. most of which might be unanswered questions that help each of us to glow up. what if I applied the same level of control that I do with my decisions around my hair to exercise, holding every thought captive and submitting it to God, behaving at all times in ways that show spiritual maturity or meal planning? what if God wants me/us to have self-control vs control? what if I brought every thought to God for His consideration? what if I repeated "BE ANXIOUS FOR NOTHING..." out loud when I get anxious? when I think of CONTROL i think of someone or something that takes charge to carry out a particular duty or position. and self-control makes me think about my living as it reflects God's image and character. the difference is God. God makes the difference. control could be about me and only me. whereas self control is directly associated with being in God's will and being a living example of His glory; so others may know and experience love and grace from Him too. so what if God is actually looking for me to explore self control as it relates to my hair vs having and expressing a level of control over my hair? did you see that - I did. while I would love to cut my hair because it feels like I can release some of the anxiety that has been building up in this season how will doing that draw me closer to God? meanwhile if I intentionally move in the fruit of the spirit (self-control) I can draw a multitude of connections, point others to Christ, and be so full of God's annointing that it will break all kinds of chains.
but I really want a hair cut. lol the real deal is, if I have a desire I need to just be clear about that desire (i.e. I want a hair cut cuz I like my hair when it is cut). because connecting a hair cut to an expression of control because there are things in my life that are out of control is a form of manipulation. and anytime i am hoping to manipulate my situation or outlook based on something that is man or woman made - that's what i would call witchcraft.
maybe God is saying my transition is better suited in His hands than in my own hands! maybe if I take my eyes off of what is in my control He can manifest His glory which is greater, better, and of course perfect! because maybe these transitions although are significant are not bigger or more powerful than God!
just like any other thing, this too needs to go before the Father in prayer.
GOD PLEASE CLEANSE ME (MIND, BODY AND SOUL) OF EVERYTHING THAT IS NOT LIKE YOU. GOD THIS IS REALLY NOT ABOUT MY HAIR AT ALL BUT MY NEED TO SURRENDER THESE CHALLENGES TO YOU!!!!
LORD CLEANSE MY AMYGDALA OF THE MEMORIES CONNECTED TO ME TRYING TO BE IN CONTROL OF SITUATIONS THAT FEEL OUT OF CONTROL. AND EXERCISING THAT CONTROL VIA WHAT I EAT OR HOW I STYLE MY HAIR!
LORD HELP ME TO CUT IT - CUT THE TIES THAT KEEP TRYING TO HOLD ME HOSTAGE TO BEHAVIORS AND THOUHT PATTERNS THAT DO NOT RESEMBLE YOU.
GOD I RECOGNIZE THAT THESE HANDS ARE NOT BIG OR STRONG ENOUGH TO CONQUER THESE CHALLENGES. BUT YOUR HANDS LORD ARE THE HANDS I NEED RIGHT NOW. LORD HELP ME TO PLACE MY CHALLENGES IN YOUR HANDS.
LORD THE TRUTH IS YOU ARE MY GOD AND YOUR PLANS ARE FLAWLESS. HELP ME LORD TO REMEMBER YOUR TRUTH AND PROMISES SO THAT I CAN EXPRESS THE FRUIT OF YOUR SPIRIT IN EVERY SITUATION & SEASON.
IN JESUS NAME. AMEN.